DOES ANYBODY READ THIS THING?!?!?!

ok so yeah ive been having a real bad week....me and chris broke up and i dont feel too bad about that...i dunno that was like whatever haha...ok well yeah BOYS R DUMB!  i hate them sometimes i really do!!!!!!  theres one whos oh so sweet but i feel like hes playin me yo....because ive been told that hes a little player...theres the one who likes me and we had a 1 day thing spur of the moment deal and i wish it never happened...theres the other one who keeps telling me he wants to make out with me and im like dude ive only talked to u in person like how many times??? 2???  yeah thats stupid...THEN THERES THE IMMATURE ONE WITH A SMALL BRAIN...i thought something was gonna happen there...everything was going so well...then he had to go off and ignore me!!!  why???  who knows becasue hes not talking to me so i cant ask him coz i think u need to be talking to someone to get a response am i correct?  and i keep meeting new guys and this is gay...im only one gal....not even a cute one at that....then theres the 19 year old who wants to meet me because he needs a gf...im like dick ive NEVER EVER talked to u what makes u think were gonna like eachother...i dunno thats weird....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i just dont know whats up with me now a days...ive been getting into deeeeeep trouble lateley and yeah its very gay....and theres the one that will always be there...ALWAYS...when one boy is gone hes gonna be there...when the next one comes and goes...hes gonna be there...hes been there since last december and he wont leave...and i dont blame him weve been through alot....but hes always gonna be there...waiting...to see if anything is gonna happen...i know him....and i love the guy...but who knows if were ever gonna have something really serious...ohhh well i have to go i have a few friends over and were gonna drink this and that.....

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AH YES...SCHOOL WHAT A DRAG YES???

so yeah school sucks but who doesnt know that right???  everyday i meet someone new which is pretty cool i guess...nothing like meeting new people who are probably never gonna talk to u again...thats the only thing i hate about meeting people...sometimes its just to meet someone coz they were there durning a conversation you and one of their friends had...ull be introduced....then ull never speak again...unlike me who at least trys to strike up a conversation with people i just met...its only common courtesy...but eh...not everybody thinks like me...and i say that is the least bit conceded way...coz im not!!!    but yeah...yesterday was a fun fun fun day...i mean i had the best time with some butthead even though we really couldnt talk because my brothers a little worry wart!  but yeah...school was bleh today...i didnt want to be there as usuall and tomorrows friday THANK GOD!!!!!!!!!!!  ah the weekend...what a beauty!!!!  haha i met this guy last week and we became cool friends and then he met one of my best friends and now he ignores me completley coz he has a thing for her now...that was kinda weird ...i dont care about the fact that he likes her haha...thats cool thats all him but like whats with the whole ignoring me thing??????  thats pretty gay...he was a cool friend while it lasted that 1 week and a half...eh who needs em????  i dont but it was pretty cool talking to him...last year i met some guy named kevin and i really wanted to start talking to him coz he seemed like a pretty cool guy...but haha he never talked to me or look at me after we were introduced hahaha...talk about a drag...OH WELL...cant get everything can we??????

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WELL WELL WELL....

well its been a LOOOOOOOOOONG time....haha alots been happening....well mainly...after 6 months its finally over...i felt he didnt like me anymore...those were some fun 6 months...he didnt seem as shoked as i thought he would of been...the way he talked to me would make it seem like he wanted to be with me forever and i was like I DONT THINK SO BUDDY!!!  like ive said...im too young to have a super serious relationship...i cant just stay with one person for forever...i have plenty of years ahead of me to go out with different people...im actually kinda relieved....he made me feel like i had so much on my back...he always wanted me to be with him...hed get mad if i couldnt visit him...did he ever make the effort to go see me???? NO!  but its ok...everyone always saw us as the happiest and most perfect couple...we never fought and we never argued or anything bad...well thats what they thought....no one saw the behind the scenes....we actually had really bad times and he made me feel like shit alot of the time...he was one of the biggest dicks i knew...but i never could let go and i finally did...half a year...not so much wasted...but i could of been doing better things then being sad...getting ignored by someone who said they loved me...love isnt about hurting someone....and i got hurt alot...so i guess he just said it...i never actually said it to him because i guess i didnt feel like he loved me and well dont two people have to love eachother for it to be love???  if he didnt really love me what was the point in saying it???  even if i did mean it...i dunno i guess i have alot on my mind about that...so yeah on a lighter note...schools gonna start...i guess thats it...

 OK SO YEAH...

my god school is so boring i dont even know what to do anymore!!!!  ok and yesterday "dad" chuy calls me and tells me that malcolms missing from his house and its 9 30 pm and he hasnt come home from school...i cant show that im worried because i was on the phone with someone who doesnt really like me being friends with malcolm so i had to be calm about it...im so freaked out right now because i dont know if hes alright or if hes gotten home or anything...i dont know what to think anymore...im really worried...but yeah i spent the last weekend with amy steve and damien and it was so fun...except for the part where i walked ana home and steve left and i was alone and sad...yeah that was gay...and christina ditched me on friday and my dad said i couldnt go to garfield...he was gonna let me change schools and last minute he says no...whatever...friday i didnt go to 5th or 6th period i went to ms. martinezs class room and yeah it was fun...chris was in there and he made me laugh a tad...uriel came in and i hadnt seen him in a loooong time so that was fun...but yeah im tired...im supposed to go out with steve but i dont think its gonna happen...kinda sucks...hes working today so i dont know when he'll be home...so i dont know...yeah im bored....

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SCHOOL BLOWS...

ok so here i am in ms chacons class...didnt feel like going to 6th period and yeah...i just talked to steve on the phone...life is going alright...christinas right here and kirks right there...yeah all is well...